My web manga: Zombie Masters.

Disclaimer: Semi-long rant and rave follows. Read at own risk. I apologize if this seems out of my character but I figure I should get at least a pass to rant/rave, and not in a good way, at least once or twice a year.



Let me start off by saying that I am basically feeling sorry for myself. I already know that. Not looking for pity, just want to vent. In real life I complain about these issues at least once a month, to my estimation anyway. Long time ago, it used to be more, try daily, so I suppose I’m getting better and the issues are fading, sorta, as time goes by. What are said issues, you ask? Well…..:


1. I pretty much don’t like my art at the moment. I can’t seem to come up with anything decent, much. I am working….slowly….on one pic that is being colored digitally and a portrait on the side. But overall I don’t like my work at the moment. I keep staring at other artists that are thousand miles away, slightly jealous (even though when I was younger I was always jealous but now it comes and goes), yes, especially if they are younger than I. That's a sad commentary in and of itself. If I had half their skill I might be better. I don’t know anatomy all that well. I can just barely do the basics so forget the crazy poses. I feel that I come up with the same lame-o thing I came up with the week before. So as you can see, that might be why you don’t see a lot of full figured drawings. I generally keep them away from the site.

2. I really, and I mean really want to be a professional manga artist, someday. A semi popular one at least….I mean I don’t expect to rival some of the greatest like D. Gray Man or Yu-gi-oh but still it would be nice. There are a whole lot of sub-issues about this that I don’t think I should go through. So I gotta get my art skills up and running more. I know I’m doing Zombie Masters as practice but haven’t worked on that for the past several days. Even that looks lame to me somewhat.

3. I have no social life. In real life, everything is basically the same as the day before, which I don’t mind 99% of the time but there are times when I wished I had some friends. This is one of those times. Even in high school I didn’t really have anyone. Sure I’ve had associates but that was all I had. Potentially friends, eventually had to move away so nothing there. I’ve always considered myself a loner but even loners gotta have a friend or two sometimes. We don’t have to hang out every day. In fact let’s not, I don’t want a clingy friend. Gotta do your own thing every once in awhile you know but still just to know you can call or email and go out would be nice. The only friends I've got are my fav. anime character or my own. Yeah, I know, I'm so lame.

4. Although I’m an anime fan and almost 20 years old I’ve never been to an anime convention. I hope to go someday but I do feel like I’m missing out. I keep hearing about how great they are and watching cosplay/convention vids and seeing how much fun that friends have together. Makes me slightly jealous, I suppose, reason why I tend not wo watch them much. And even if I did got I’ve got no one to go with, so I’d probably be alone there too. This point also ties into the fact that sometime I think I am behind in life. They are out doing things and I’m doing the same thing I’ve been doing for the past while. I’ve got nothing fun going on. The only thing I’m doing right now is going to college. I mean, I’ve never even been to Disney World and a little more that half the population probably have. Yeah, I know, laugh it up.



I think that about sums it up…..sorta. Give me a day and I’ll be back to normal. I know these are petty issues and one would probably think I might have slightly lost it. *sulks in corner for the moment*

Ironically, posting this made me feel a slightly better. Now I gotta go and get Jadebi, Tyki, Marik, Atemu, Youko, Kuronue or some of my imaginary so called "friends" to help cheer me up and get me back to normal. *walks away slightly brooding*

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FACT #1: I’m a loner, no real life friends.
FACT #2: My major dream is to be a manga-ka (manga artist).
FACT #3: I’m a graphic designer in training with web design on the side. I also dabble in animation and illustration meaning I’ve taken some classes on the subject but not going to have a degree in it.
FACT #4: I’m an honor-roll student, A-B grade average.
FACT #5: I detest spiders and insects. Actually I hate them!
FACT #6: I sometimes make up words randomly.
FACT #7: I sometimes talk tongue twister talk if that makes sense.
FACT #8: I’ve never had a boyfriend nor do I want one at the present moment.

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